{"id":267,"date":"2025-05-07T13:47:06","date_gmt":"2025-05-07T13:47:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/?page_id=267"},"modified":"2025-05-08T18:40:56","modified_gmt":"2025-05-08T18:40:56","slug":"roberto","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/?page_id=267","title":{"rendered":"Roberto"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>JOURNAL&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;PROPERTY OF DR. ROBERTO MIRANDA<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>Before the incident:<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>What are the odds I meet Gerardo Escobar on the day that news breaks of his leading the new commission and get the chance to butter him up. A better impression could not have been made.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>I ought to go back. Bring him his spare right now. If he\u2019s on my side they\u2019d never prosecute me. My helping him is an investment. The first impression sticks and I need him to see me not only favorably, but as a man who fights for democracy and healing. I need him to know a posteriori that I am a man of honor and integrity.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>If I show virtuous character, he won\u2019t be inclined to prosecute me even if someone looks into the prison. They have no record of which doctors they brought in. I have an alibi. It\u2019s been 15 years. It could have been anyone. The person could likely be dead. Right? I hope so.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>During the incident:<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>My plan to show this man the virtue of my character has backfired.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>She says I\u2019m the one. The doctor who tormented her. Broke her. But her evidence is a voice. Vocal mannerisms. Schubert? She seems indomitable. All people worth their status like Schubert. That can\u2019t be evidence. Her certainty seems unshakable. It\u2019s trauma speaking. Gerardo is a man of reason. I need his reasoned doubt. I need her to wear herself out.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Memory is a dangerous thing. Testimony is notoriously unreliable. If I confess I\u2019m done. If I don\u2019t confess I\u2019m <strong>really<\/strong> done.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>I have to maintain her insanity. My coerced confession cannot constitute evidence in Gerardo\u2019s head nor the courtrooms which he worships.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>The details Gerardo got from Paulina seemed by the minute. Many details I had long forgotten. Paulina\u2019s experience trumps any deductive process I could convince Gerardo to follow.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>After the incident:<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>I walk, but I\u2019m not free. I said what she wanted to hear. Sort of. Was it the Truth? How do I even know anymore? I guess I don\u2019t. Will I find out? Did I tell her what would give her peace or give me peace? Maybe I gave her closure. Maybe I just lied. I saved myself\u2014could she have been saved?<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Gerardo thinks he\u2019s the symbol of democracy. Those wounds will never heal. That woman is fundamentally distraught\u2014her very foundation is in pieces.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Do I feel guilty? Sure. But that is nothing compared to the shame of criminality in front of the nation. Is it my fault that I was put in a position of power? No. Is it my fault I fulfilled the role in the ways I did? Maybe, but no one died. I made sure of it. I guess I didn\u2019t have to enjoy it. But there was no one there to stop me. No one ever questioned me.&nbsp;<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>What else could I have told Paulina and Gerardo\u2014what were my options? I guess my extralegal interrogation was better than life in jail or death. I have my qualms about the option I chose, but I had such a shitty set of options.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>JOURNAL&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;PROPERTY OF DR. ROBERTO MIRANDA Before the incident: During the incident: After the incident:<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-267","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/267","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=267"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/267\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":305,"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/267\/revisions\/305"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/casey.dcreate.domains\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=267"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}